The words came softly out of his mouth: ”Mom, it doesn’t feel like Christmas this year.”
They cut a little deep- the words that I had been feeling and thinking, were now being voiced by the boy child growing into a man.
I always wondered what I would say to him when he came to me with that thought. He and I, we think alike.
It dawned on me, in that moment. While we have not had ‘Santa’ visit for Christmas in several years, there is an ambience at Christmas that changes as a heart matures.
He is on the cusp of changing from boy to man in his body. His feet are growing faster than shoes can be purchased for him. His non-stop eating and constant moving with mood swings that shift from one second to the next are proof that his body is stirring.
And this statement shows the stirring of his spirit.
He knows God and Jesus. He’s wrestling with making them his. I wait patiently, each day for his desire and his battle with his spirit to come to a point of submission.
As my mind wanders and I pray for words of wisdom, I look at him, stop and this comes to my mind
What does Christmas feel like?
His answer….is truth: ”it feels exciting, like something wonderful is about to happen. It’s sweet with all of the candy and cookies we bake. It’s fun with the crafts we make sitting at the table and laughing. It’s the music we sing and the time with family…Mom, I know it’s about Jesus’ birthday. I love celebrating it and ….”
and then he hits me right there in that sweet spot that we try to keep hidden from our children… ”But, Mom, I don’t feel that excitement this year.”
Christmas is Exciting
The months have been hard recently with Daddy at work non-stop. Working hard to support a family in a harsh environment where week after week it seems someone else is let go. Recitals have been missed, moments reading for the Advent have been sparse as a family and the days we are together are rushed as we work on projects that can not be delayed.
That’s the excitement this boy,this son is missing. We all do.
And so….. I’m putting away the books after today. We are taking a break. Time to sing, dance, refresh, renew, create make and bake….and serve others.
Christmas is finding joy in the daily blessings
My goal is not to make Christmas something magical that can not be experienced every day. My goal is to make each day one that is full of God’s grace and beauty. We will take time to discuss that. To share those moments that are fragile. To create new memories- to create a Christmas that is based on finding joy and excitement in our daily blessings and serving others through our blessings.
With or without Santa…. the feeling of Christmas changes. It’s not that Christmas changes…. But when the heart grows closer to Christ and we begin to focus on his word daily, we see the world through different eyes. The malls, the shopping, the chaos, they lose their excitement because truth is seen in this world filled with things that rust will overtake one day.
Excitement and joy are found in the gifts that last for eternity.