It happened again, my heart began to beat, I could feel a heat from my desire for quiet rising within my heart. Quiet was not on the horizon. Chaos seemed to be looming at the door as they began to argue.
The little things, it is always the little things. I sit and realize they have no idea how the little things pile up and become a mountain.
My head screamed, my heart pounded and I wanted do so what I had grown up witnessing. I wanted to scream out loud and beg for unity through threats of punishment.
In that moment, I did what I’m learning to do-I prayed. I prayed for this heart that has bitter roots being torn out by the Father to stop this cycle. I prayed for these little hearts in front of me to learn the selfless act of loving others.
As I prayed, during the heat of the argument that was growing around me I knew it was up to me to change the environment. ”Go to your rooms.”
Those four words were spoken with more peace than I have felt in months. The meaning in them was not to ‘get them out of my way’ but a chance for all to find peace and quiet for our home.
I sat and prayed. I prayed hard on my face before the only one who can make the changes that need to be made.
When we all reunited, we sat and read from His word-each of us sharing our own selfish sins, laying them down in front of one another and the road to healing, peace and love began.
No threats were screamed, no tears from hurt words flowed and this Mama who usually sheds a tear every night from guilt felt that I was finally getting it. I was finally seeing this opportunity he has given me as a mother is about laying everything down in front of him. Not just the good, but the bad.
He wants all of it, it’s his opportunity to show off his glory by changing the hearts of those who will bow down and ask.
“Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity.” Colossians 4:5
What opportunity have you had to love your children during a time of discipline and give God a chance to show off his ability to change hearts in a broken world?
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