When I began writing a little more than three years ago, I wanted to encourage people to follow their faith, to grow strong in God’s plan for their lives and to really get people to think.
And that is truly what I want to do here.
However, I’ve been told that some of my blog posts are a tad bit harsh so people won’t read what I write. This was backed up with a tweet/or a blog post (I forget which) that a person should only read things that make them feel good. I guess that makes sense in this era of self-esteem psychobabble. However, for those who are growing in Christ – that should not be our goal. Or, if it is, then I would have to ask if people read their Bible. Honestly, I can’t read it and always feel good about myself. I read it and see the beauty, grace and glory of God. I also see how wretched this heart is.
But, I digress….
There have been some behind the scenes changes here at Mom’s Mustard Seeds and I feel I need to make them public. Perhaps not all, but the biggest changes need to be addressed to stop any private facebook or ning conversations that may be going on.
This biggest change is truly hard for me to write. After a LOT of prayer and many talks with my husband, I have stepped down from my position Teach Them Diligently Convention. I have loved working for TTD and the family behind it. I have grown so much and I have learned a lot during my tenure working there. I am eternally thankful for the past two years and will continue to attend and support Teach Them Diligently Convention. I love what they are attempting to do for all families - not just homeschool families but any family who desire(s) to disciple their children and grow a strong family for Christ.
As Christian parents, that should be one of our top goals, right? To raise our children for the Kingdom of God by fulfilling the great commission in our homes first and then out in the world.
Now, back to me leaving. As I said, I have loved working there, but I would not be honest if I said it was easy. What I have witnessed and dealt with personally behind the scenes (from people outside of TTD) has been dreadful.
From gossip to mean emails,and flat out lies: I have seen them all. If I were of the world, I would say I have been a victim of them all. But, I am not a victim. My heart hurts heavy for those who have felt the need to divide and conquer rather than realize we live in a big world and we aren’t in highschool anymore. Or even going beyond that and loving others and creating unity.
I’ve stayed up late crying over gossip and emails tattling on me. The lies and deceit – it’s been awful and it’s just what the devil wants. And I’ll be honest. He’s doing a good job.
All of that ‘stuff’ has kept me from focusing on my family.
I have encouraged you to give your children the attention they deserve – discipling them and teaching them (if that is what God has called you to do). I’ve shared with you that you need to teach your children right and be the Wife and Mom you were created to be. I can’t keep writing to encourage you in those areas if I am not doing what I am writing.
So, me – I’ve stepped away and stepped down.
I want this community to be one of integrity. One that touches every part of a Mom’s life. Any Mom’s life. While I homeschool, this place is not just for those who homeschool. It’s for all – anyone who wants to stop thinking like the masses and grow their brains in ways that they wake up from the monotony around them and stop bowing down to those who want to rule over them.
So, I quit blogging.
I’m going to write again. I’m going to share and be fully honest with anyone who reads in this space that I pay for on the internet.
My heart is to encourage and help others grow. Me, I’m just a sinner. I’m the worst of these – but the road I’ve been on has taught me a few lessons and I pray that others may learn from my mistakes as I plant a few mustard seeds – here and there…
If you have had to face the same thing – others have backed you into a corner or you’ve felt you had to do something so you wouldn’t end up being the ‘talk of the day’ – I’ll pray for you. You have a voice and it’s more powerful when it’s truly lined up with the word of Christ. And to be quite honest, if you are a Christian, you should first be an Advocate for Christ and other areas of your life should reflect that.
For me, I’m already making plans for what I am going to be writing over the next few months and conferences I’ll be attending – and I hope to meet you all. I’ll be at Apologia’s Real Refreshment Retreat and at least one of the Teach Them Diligently Convention this year. I’d love to meet you there as me – Rebecca….. just another Mom who has the guts to get on the internet and be real.