So many days I have sat in a puddle of tears in my closet. It’s my oasis, my place to run and hide when this crazy world of being a wife and a mother closes around me and I can’t seem to find my footing.
It’s my prayer closet.
I’ve found that this little place and refuge has helped me regain my sense of who I am in God’s eyes when all about me the world is telling me I’m a failure. My house isn’t perfect, I don’t cook pinterest-perfect (or worthy) meals, our clothes are not the latest and greatest and my children are not the picture perfect children, I’m told they would be if “I just taught them to behave better.”
Yes, this place of refuge has become my little hide away. I’m not ashamed to say I need a place to sit on my knees in front of my Father and remember the blessings, grace and mercy He bestows so that I can follow in His foot steps. I have His Word and a journal with pens (that often end up in my husband’s shoes) secretly stowed in a place where I can find them from before the sun comes up until the sun goes down.
When I was a little girl, I had a little hiding place in the bottom of our bathroom linen closet. It was a little place, where I hid from the world when it was overwhelming me. I hung up pictures and lined it with pillows. I did not know I would need a little place like that when I grew up.
But, I do. I need a prayer closet.
My children need to see and know that Mama is not perfect. They need to see that I know I am not perfect and only one can help create a loving, gentle and nurturing heart in me. Only the Creator of the World can take this broken vessel and make it new.
My prayer closet – it’s my place to be quiet, listen, and learn.
My prayer closet – it’s where I can regroup, remember and find grace.
My prayer closet – it’s where I can remove the harsh tone and replace it with a tone that nurtures and loves my children.
My prayer closet – it’s where I meet God and He reminds me of the changes He has brought me through and that he will not leave me or forsake me.
Do you have a prayer closet?